Five Times A Day

My positive change at the new moon was to change my eating habits.  I have a love/hate relationship with food.  I've had an eating disorder almost my entire life.

I'm doing well so far, but the thing I'm finding really hard is how often I have to eat. Eating 3 meals and 2 snacks is what I'm finding the most difficult.

This is going to be my mountain.  I'm strong enough to climb it, sure.  I know that its easy to slip too though and before you know it oops, missed that snack.  Then lickety split back to eating when I remember or when my husband asks "you eat today?"  Ya, I'm one of those.  I forget to eat.

I'm not stick thin, so get that picture out of your head.  Nope, I'm a good 100 pounds overweight now.  A lifetime of not eating, then eating, then dieting, side effects of medications and those birthdays that keep coming have me where I am today...Avoiding mirrors, buying clothes or having my picture taken. 

I've tried before many times, slipped and not bothered to get back up.  Its easy to put on those old habits.  They are familiar and somewhat comfortable in their own way.

Not this time.  Now I have the tools I need.  I have support in my husband who will give me his hand if I slip, Bless him.  I have the power of the universe to call upon when I feel weak.  Sister Moon empowers me and reminds me I am indeed strong enough to change.

After all, she does it every day.